Rick Grimes felt as though he was waiting for
a shoe to drop. How he’d let Shane talk him into this he’d never know. There
was no point putting his life in danger for something he was sure they couldn’t
pull off.
“We’ve got
to get home,” he told Shane. “The others will be worried, especially Carl.”
Shane was
shaking his head. “No, man, I’m telling you. We can do this.”
“What’s the
deal?” Rick asked. “Why are you really so determined to do it?”
Shane
shrugged. “We need those supplies.”
Rick put a
hand on Shane’s shoulder to stop him from approaching the walker-infested
store.
“You go in
there, against twenty walkers, you ain’t coming out alive.”
“I will if
you man up and come with me,” Shane shot back.
“This is
about Michonne,” said Rick.
“Not
everything is about her,” Shane said tensely.
Rick knew it
was a lie. Everything eventually came back to her. It always came back to
Michonne, the woman Shane hadn’t even liked when she first came to their camp.
Michonne, the woman who’d proven to be a valuable member of the camp and won
everyone’s respect and admiration, Shane’s included. The woman who had taken Carl under
her wing after Lori’s death at the hands of walkers and become a second mother
to him. Michonne, who had chosen Rick over Shane, despite how often he tried to
convince her that he was the better man, the better provider, the better ally
to have at her back.
“You comin’ or not?”
“Not.”
That was
another lie. Rick knew it, as did Shane, because he surged forward and opened
fire, drawing the attention of the crowd. He switched to the machete he’d taken
to carrying, hacking down one after another. Finally Rick joined in. He couldn’t
stand by and watch a man, who was slowly letting petty jealousy turn him from
friend to enemy, die as he tried to take the store and win supplies for their
people.
When the
shooting and the hacking stopped he and Shane stood victorious.
“Told you we
could do it. You back the truck up to the store. I’m going in.”
“There could
be more inside.”
“If you hear
me hollerin’, you come runnin,’” Shane replied, and disappeared into the
shadowy depths of the store.
*****
The camp was
astonished to see the back of the truck loaded up with supplies when Rick and
Shane came back. They took another car, along with a jeep after emptying the
truck and made another trip back to finish cleaning out the storeroom at the
back of the store, as well as what was left on the shelves. Overall it was an all-day job and well worth the effort.
Fish were
cooked up on the grill that night, and the grownups indulged a little in drink
from the wine taken from the store while the kids enjoyed cans of soda that were cooled in the water from the quarry. Nobody was allowed to get drunk, in case of
a walker attack, but they pushed the boundaries in their desire to celebrate the good fortune the Fates so rarely bestowed upon them.
Michonne
started for her tent, ready to call it a night. She thought Rick would follow
her so she wasn’t surprised when she heard someone come in and then wrap arms
around her. She knew at
once it wasn’t Rick, by feel of the man behind her as well as the smell of him.
She turned and found Shane staring at her.
“Michonne,”
he whispered.
“You’re
drunk, Shane. Go to your tent, sleep it off.”
“I ain’t
drunk. I swear I ain’t,” he insisted. Perhaps he wasn’t. His eyes were too clear for that.
Shane smothered
Michonne’s lips with a kiss that she immediately tried to pull away from, but he was
squeezing her too closely and she couldn’t break the connection. Michonne
pushed at him but he held on. As capable a warrior as she was, she wasn’t
physically stronger than Shane and she was going to have to hurt him to make
him back off.
Finally she
was able to speak when he attempted to kiss her neck.
“Shane, stop
it,” she hissed. God only knew what would happen if Rick walked in on them. She feared blood would be shed, and she feared it would be Rick’s.
“I’m better
for you than he is,” Shane said, heatedly. “He couldn’t protect Lori.”
“You didn’t
either,” Michonne pointed out, and the words hurt him.
“She wasn’t
mine to protect.”
“You wanted
her to be. I could see it,” she said, trying to get free of his grip. “Let go,
Shane. You can’t have someone just to spite Rick.”
“What I feel
for you is real, Michonne. Ain’t got shit to do with Rick. Just gimme a chance
to show you. I can satisfy you like he can’t.”
Michonne was
alarmed when Shane pushed her onto the floor of the tent. In close quarters it
was hard for her to get any kind of leverage. Michonne began to panic.
“Shane, stop
it! Stop!”
His hands
were everywhere, pushing up under her shirt to grope her breasts, shoving her
pants down in an effort to reach her womanhood, even holding her hands above
her head while he pushed unwanted kisses along her jawline and neck. She
struggled underneath him, feeling his hardness against her, repulsing her, scaring her.
“Get off!”
She slapped
him once, twice, then shoved hard at him. Shane seemed to wake up from his
lust-fueled haze and he backed away, crouching low across from her. Both of
them breathed heavily, trying to catch their breath.
“You ever
touch me again I’ll kill you,” Michonne vowed. “I’ll tell Rick about this if
you come near me, I swear it. Now get out.”
*****
Shane wiped
at his lips, thinking he was never going to get the taste of Michonne out of his
mouth, that he would never stop wanting her. Could he rape a woman? There was a
time when he would have answered that question with a resounding no and without
hesitation. So much had happened since the turn. He was a different man. A
whole new animal. He started to wonder what he would do if the chance came for
him to have Michonne once and for all. Any other man in the camp like him, Shane
would see him as a threat and kick him out at best, kill him at worst.
He left the
tent and started toward his own. Rick got up from the fire where he was talking
with Andrea, Jim, and Jacqui, laughing happily, oblivious to what had gone down
between Shane and his woman. Rick stood, a bottle of wine in hand, and started
for Michonne’s tent. Their eyes met and Shane came to a stop.
“I hate what
you got with her,” Shane said, being completely honest.
“I know. You
always have,” Rick answered.
“You got a
good woman in Michonne.”
Rick nodded.
“Find someone you can call your own and be happy. Otherwise, you and I are
gonna have a real problem, Shane.”
Shane
watched Rick move on, disappearing into Michonne’s tent. He watched the tent
for a long time before going into his own and lying down. He couldn’t shake
from his head the knowledge that at that moment Michonne was giving to Rick
what she should have been giving to him, and the envy was more than he could
stand, but stand it he would have to. He had no choice. Michonne had made her
choice, and it was Rick. He was just going to have to live with it.
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