Carol
Peletier approached the graveyard with two bottles of soda in her hands. Not
only had some engineers and scientists and construction workers been added to
their community, they’d also scavenged solar panels and now
had limited power at the prison for running freezers and refrigerators to keep
the meat the hunters brought home. They could also operate the washing machines a few hours a week,
which made laundry day so much easier.
Now she
had two bottles of ice cold 7-Up in hand and she approached Rick Grimes, who
knelt beside the crosses of the graves of their fallen friends and family. A
sculptor had made new wooden grave markers and waterproofed them to help them hold up under
rain and other weather. Now Rick knelt before Lori’s grave marker and hung a
wreath of flowers he and Carl had weaved the night before. It was remembrance
day. All the markers had been decorated.
Carol
handed Rick a soda before hanging a wreath over the marker erected in honor of
Sophia, and also one on T-Dog’s marker. Unlike some of the markers that had
been erected for empty graves, T-Dog’s remains had been put in the ground. She
felt a lump of emotion in her throat when she remembered his sacrifice to save
her.
“You okay?”
Rick asked when she sat down beside him.
“Not
really. I think about Sophia every day and it hurts. I hurt when I think of
what T-Dog did to save me. I wouldn’t be here now if it wasn’t for him.”
Rick
nodded. “I know. I’m grateful to him for that.”
She smiled
at him and she looked at her bottle of soda. “These will all be gone
someday,” she said. “These kinds of treats are hard to find.”
“Think
society will reestablish itself in our lifetime to run the factories again?”
Carol shook
her head. “No, and that’s good.”
“Really?”
Carol
nodded. “Look at the way we were destroying the planet. This plague may save
the whole planet. The factories will be up and running again, someday. Until
then, the earth could use the break.”
“True.
Still…I miss electricity and air conditioning and grocery stores,” Rick
lamented.
Carol
leaned into him playfully. “Me too.”
“Carol,”
Rick said, after a few moments of silence. “I never thanked you for what you
did for Lori when I abandoned her.”
“Rick--”
“No,” he
said. He didn’t want absolution from her. He wanted to take responsibility for
not being there for his wife when she was growing their daughter.
“She spoke
of you often,” Carol informed him. “She spoke of how much she loved you. She
hoped that you two could find your way back to each other someday.”
Rick
suddenly broke. He bowed his head, his shoulders wracked with sobs, and Carol
sat beside him with her arm around him. He needed that. He needed to just have
someone at his side, offering silent understanding. Her touch was comforting.
He was grateful for it.
“I should
have forgiven her for rejecting me after I told her about Shane.”
“Rick,
Lori was afraid that she was responsible for what happened between you two. She
was afraid you hated her for it.”
“I didn’t.”
“I know
that. I think if you’d had more time you two would have worked that out. Rick,
Lori loved you. She knew you loved her. That’s what matters. She wouldn’t want
you to keep berating yourself. She’d want you to forgive yourself as she would.
She wouldn’t have held it against you. You deserve to live without guilt. You
deserve to be happy.”
“Maybe
someday I will.”
Carol didn’t
think it likely. She thought it would stay with him until the day he died. “To
the dead,” Carol said, holding up her bottle.
“To those
who love them,” said Rick.
They
clinked bottles and took long pulls off their drinks. The soda was cold and
sweet and delicious. They enjoyed their drinks as they watched the sun set
together. They were two friends sharing their grief, taking comfort in one
another, and remembering the dead.
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