Two days of captivity. Three days of running from the living and fighting
off the dead. Now she was on her fourth day, alone, wondering if she would ever
see her group again. Michonne tried to take comfort in knowing that at least
they were still together. They had each other, even if they had to eventually move on without her.
She had
no idea where they had taken her. All she knew was that she had ridden in the
trunk of a car for an entire day before being taken into a camp. The men there
had meant to rape her and then use her as a serving woman, as they had the
other women in the camp.
Their
mistake had been to underestimate her and just how capable she was with -- or without -- a
sword. She’d killed her
kidnappers. She’d spared the women,
set them free. None of them had wanted to come with her to find her people.
They had other family and friends they wanted to locate so she’d said goodbye and
set out on her own.
She’d sat on the front
steps of a house after that, her loot bag empty after an unsuccessful run, her heart aching for her people, Rick especially. She loved him but had never told him.
Now she didn't know where she was. She didn't know which direction the kidnappers had taken her. She was lost and tempted to
give in to self-pity. She’d been tempted to
quit. Why bother fighting? Why not just lie down, right there, and let the next
walker to come along take a bite? She could go into the house after that, lie
down, and wait to turn.
Or she
could open a vein. She could bleed out and turn.
Either
way her struggle would be over. There would be no more days of hunger and
thirst. There would be no more cold and lonely nights. No more fear. No more
loss. It would just be over. If there was life after death then she would be
reunited with her son, her family, her friends. If there wasn’t an afterlife then
she would sink into blessed oblivion.
Win-win
either way.
She’d ended up killing
the next walker to approach. She left her veins closed. She lived. She kept
going out of stubbornness and habit. Damn if hope wasn’t near impossible to
kill despite its fragility.
One
foot in front of the other. That was all she concerned herself with. She kept
walking. She kept moving. She went on until she found herself surrounded by
another writhing mass of rotted walkers. She drew her sword. She fought.
*~*~*
When
Rick found Michonne his heart seemed to literally tear in two inside his chest.
She lay there, unmoving, in the center of a group of fallen walkers. Most of them had head
wounds but some had been beheaded. Those heads now had jaws that snapped
eagerly when they sensed his presence.
Her
eyes were closed. She lay perfectly still.
“No…no…” he whispered. He
fell forward, his hands gripped the sun warmed grass.
She had
gone out fighting but that was little comfort to Rick. He would have to put her
down. He would have to end her and he wasn’t sure he could.
“Oh, no…”
He saw
movement. He sat up and put his hand to his gun. God, why had he let her leave
the camp to go on a solo run? Why hadn’t he insisted he go with her?
Even
more importantly, why hadn’t he told her?
His
gaze slid slowly up to her face. He prepared himself to look into dead,
film-covered eyes. Instead he found they were clear. They were focused on him.
“Rick…” she said, her voice
parched, before she passed out.
She was
alive. He reached for her hand and felt her wrist. There was a pulse there.
Weak but steady. Acting quickly he picked her up and slung her over his
shoulder to carry her back to the car.
*~*~*
She
wasn’t feverish when Rick carried
her into the house he’d set up as base. He
undressed her, pulling her dirty, blood-stained clothes from her body, and
looked her over from head to toe. No scratches. No bites. She was severely
dehydrated, however, and she needed something to eat.
He sat
her up and managed to help her drink a few cups of water. After that he covered
her in a blanket to help ward off the chill of the evening. He lay next to her
for a while, feeling her heart beat under his thumb as he held her hand. He
listened to her shallow breathing. The water got into her system and she began
to come around.
“I thought you were a
dream,” she said.“You found me.”
“I’m real. We always find each other,” he said. He kissed
her brow. “I love you. I need
you to hear me say it at least once.”
Michonne’s
eyes slipped closed and she drifted into sleep again.
*~*~*
In the morning Rick came back from a
hunt and grilled the rabbit he’d caught in the
back yard. He came in to find Michonne sitting up in bed. She wore his blue
shirt while her things soaked in a bucket by the window.
“You should have let me wash your clothes,” he admonished, though not too harshly.
The truth was she was naked and wearing
only his shirt. Lori had liked to do that when she was in the mood. She’d known it would turn him on. Michonne was doing it simply
because she needed something to wear while her clothes soaked and then dried.
Still, she looked good.
“Here,” he said, giving her most of the meat, as well as a roll of
stale crackers he’d brought with him from camp. He went to finish her clothes
while she ate and watched him.
“We gonna talk about it?” she
said.
He knew full well what she meant. “What, that I love you?”
She nodded.
“What is there to talk about?”
he shrugged. “Except to ask if that bothers you.”
She shook her head. “No, it doesn’t bother me. I’m just…”
“You don’t feel the same
way? That’s okay. You don’t have
to. I just wanted you to know.”
That wasn’t
the problem. The problem was fear. She was scared to love again. It seemed like
every time she allowed herself to care for someone, whether it was platonic or
romantic, this world ripped them from her. It was bad enough to be taken from
her group, but thinking she would never see Rick again had been especially
hard. It had hurt deeper than anyone else because she loved him to.
Now he’d
actually said it. Now she knew he felt the same way and all she wanted to do
was throw herself into his arms and never let go.
They finished breakfast. Though nights
were cool the days were hot. She decided to put her clothes on wet just so they
could get on their way home. Rick didn’t
speak again. He didn’t press the issue. Instead he packed away their blanket and
supplies and headed for the front door.
“Carl and the others are gonna be glad to see--”
Michonne pressed her lips to Rick’s, cutting off the chatter before it could start. She didn’t want the silence filled with words that didn’t mean anything.
“I love you too,” she
said, and took his free hand. He nodded once, his beautifully full lips pulling
up in a smile.
“Let’s go home,” he said, and led
her down the steps toward the car. They would drive back to their camp. They
would figure out where to go from there.
Very sweet. I loved it!
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